Brown Bear Herbs Herbalism & Tactics for Thriving Together

This week we meditated on guā lǒu shī, 栝樓實, Trichosanthes cucumerina fruit, snake or king gourd. Pre Meditation Sweet flavor. The flavor lingers. Meditation 1 Me: I have a strong headache come on in front on my right ear/below my temple (zygomatic arch, near TMJ). This passes. I have a lot of sensation in my crown chakra.  My daughter (with a stomach ache going into the meditation): There was a shadowy clawed hand, made of shadows inside of my body. My stomach ache was in the form of a black mass in part of my abdomen (upper left quadrant). The claws were scraping against it and the darkness was spreading. It was making the problem spread. Passing gas has begun (maybe helping with the stomach ache).  Meditation 2 Me: A headache started in the same spot, went right through my head to the other side, and wrapped upwards around and above my left eyebrow. Then it dissipated.  My daughter: The claw was coming towards the black "bulb" on my left side again. The bulb started radiating white light, and by doing so it drove off the claw.  Summary and Traditional Use Guā lǒu shī is considered sweet and helpful for clearing phlegm heat and qi stagnation (often manifesting as pain). The whole plant can be used, but the fruit (which we used for our tea) acts primarily on the stomach, large intestine, and lung channels. Relieving dry constipation, lung qi stagnation (manifesting as lumps or absesses in the breasts, could be sorrow), today the fruit is made into an injectable form and used for angina (often due to build up of fatty substances narrowing the blood vessel walls), used in diabetes for sugar management. This herb is also used for menstrual block and general blood stagnation (or congealed blood). It is said to cure deafness (Shén Nóng Běncǎo Jīng)--i do not know what the mechanism is for this, whether it is clearing passages in the ear that are filled with mucus, wax, or other congealed substances, or regrowth of cilia. Not to be used in large quantities by pregnant women (extracts of the plant were used as an abortifacient during "one child per family" China and continue to be used for expelling dead fetus, ectopic pregnancies, etc).  In Ayurvedic medicine, T. dioicha (leaf), is used for enlarged and edematous (damp) liver.  The ability of this herb to moisten and promote movement did seem to be experienced by my daughter. I had painful headaches arise and disappear that were positionally related to the gall bladder channel (often associated with liver issues). Helping with menstrual issues is often related to some support of the liver function. In Chinese medicine the lungs control the liver and the two organs work together to regulate flow of qi. Because of these connections and my experiences, I could see this herb being part of a formula to ease headaches in front of and above the ears, and eyebrows. Energetically I wonder about how the herb is so into stagnant and inflammed liquids (tumors, blood clots, phlegm, plaques seem to have a similar quality and are often associated with inflammation). I enjoy looking at a plant's physical characteristics and environment of preferences for clues to why they succeed medicinally and how they teach us to function better. This plant enjoys growing in marshes, home of stagnant waters. It moves the stagnate, turbid liquids up high (it is a vine)--unlike most plants, growing close to the earth, this ascends the water and transforms it. The plant takes this energy and makes the largest/'king' gourds, filled with cooling, moistening energy, with the ability to move this fluid as far as it needs to go. Movement in itself is medicine--this is a large part of the process of healing pain.  Invitation Have you worked with Guā lǒu shī fruit by itself or in formula, or other parts of the herb, or varietals? What was your experience? Our plant meditations make me curious about the emotional and/or spiritual qualities of this herb. Did you notice the plant's work on this level?     

Filaree is known to be helpful for repetitive thoughts (like OCD). I discuss second arrows, a name for emotions and judgements that compound the "first arrow" of the main condition you are suffering from. Purchase here:   

This week we meditated on an oat tops, scientific name Avena sativa.  Pre-meditation The taste is "weird and musky, a little like b.o.". I found it warming, comforting, and taste is a little slippery, a touch of grass flavor. Meditation 1 My daughter: Basically, Born to Die by Lana Del Rey was stuck in my head. There was this red baseball cap that was spinning around (in nothingness). It landed on Patrick Bateman's head while he was wearing his iconic striped suit. As soon as it got there, it pretty much disappeared. He was raising his ax up to kill someone. He brought the ax down to cut the victim in half. As he chopped through the person they became a green onion, and the ax cut the onion instead. Then the green onion started stitching itself back together with the power of the herb. It became the human again and started attacking Patrick Bateman.  Me: The herb talked about how much work I have done on my chin compared to men, who already have hair there (and are naturally subdued). This is referring to the kirtan kriya which I have been doing for years. The kirtan kriya for women is done laying on your stomach with your chin on the ground. The reasoning behind this is that men already have hair on their chins which calms their emotions. By doing the yogic practice with pressure on the chin, it helps women do this too. I first did this kriya around 20 years ago, it relieved me of intrusive PSTD symptoms from rape after 40 consecutive days of practice. This included resolving severe flashbacks, which have never returned. Because it was such a powerful kriya I decided to try and do it longer (for mastery, 500+ days) to see what would happen. I have found that it gradually eased my deeper PTSD symptoms (fear of men and intimacy due to repeated abuse) and helped me to start seeing how deeply relationships impacted men too, even though our culture encourages them to hide their emotions.  Meditation 2 My daughter: After the thing with the onion Patrick Bateman said "Screw you guys, I'm going home," à la Cartman from South Park. He jaunted off with his ax over one shoulder. Then he bumped into Reese Witherspoon (but Elle Woods in her bunny costume, not Reese of American Psycho). She pulled a Scream mask over her face and stabbed him. I feel satisfied after this herb.  Me: The herb clarifies: the significance of the above being what is it that I give to you as an emotionally mature woman, compared to what you give to me, naturally more calm, but thinking of yourself?  Summary and Traditional Use Avena is an important tonic for the nervous system, restoring frayed, exhausted nerves from overwork or prolonged stress. It helps with insomnia from mental irritation and/or feeling discouraged. Exhaustion is a primary symptom indicating oat. It strengthens connective tissue, skin, mucosa and the nerves themselves. It is helpful for some PMS symptoms including headache with panic or nausea (M Wood, Earthwise Herbal, Old World Medicinal Plants, 2008, pp124-125). I have heard many people loving avena, but I have not had much interaction with the plant to form my own opinion. I value other people's experiences so much. Together they put together of avena as deeply restoring or satisfying on both a physical and emotional level. The images of the man from American Psycho being turned upon by restored and empowered women are amazing. In Chinese medicine the pulse known as scallion, or kǒu mài, can indicate (among other things) extreme loss of blood, such as by ax, and damage of yin (the feminine, receptive principle). The kirtan kriya is another helper for restroring damaged yin (to any degree). I love the resurrection power of this herb, which appears to be very strong. The image of the onion stalk stitching itself together (the plant does have very strong stalks) and rising to retaliate is a strong indication of this herb's power. When the man walks off, without a care, a herione, budding lawyer, Elle Woods (who will not be made less by other's trying to bring her down in her bunny costume, nor submit to being less femme) finishes the job. It tells a story that we do not need to feel tired anymore, we can recover from even near life-ending injury, and we are not alone. Amazing and unexpected!  Invitation What is your experience with avena sativa as an herb? Have you found it to be calming or restorative? Please share in the comments below.

Gégēn, also known as kudzu and arrowroot, is a widely available herb that has been traditionally used to help with alcohol abuse, overeating, and some of their physical impacts. It can be helpful for many conditions with deep underlying emotional reasons for the behavior. This plant has many other uses including for other health issues, as well as crafting and cooking.  Read more about Gégēn here on the plant meditation blog post.

This week we meditated with bitter root, kū shēn, 苦参, Sopharae Flavesentis, an herb of Chinese Classical Medicine. Pre Meditation Bitter!!!! I am guessing this herb is high in alkaloids. It tastes a little milder than Calea Zacatechichi (to give both a little perspective). It is very intense.  Meditation 1 Me: I feel activated on the left side of my brain. The question is, "If you are having trouble with this side of your brain, what happens with the other side?" The other side becomes enhanced and functions better.  My daughter: I had a vision, there were some sticks, like the kind for stirring paint. They were wrapped in wool and people were pouring gasoline on them and burning them. I was seeing a lot of smoke and flames.  Meditation 2 Me: I felt a lot of stimulation in my head/brain. It started on the left side, moved across the bridge of my nose (but also within but in the area), and continued to move. It was very stimulating and motivating. My daughter: There was looked like a leaf. From the stem to the tip, a bunch of black, rotting decay was growing up it. Somebody lit the top of the leave on fire, the tip, and it was burning. I was upset about it. I then fell asleep.  Summary and Traditional Use Kū shēn is commonly used topically to heal a wide variety of skin conditions. The image above shows kū shēn (top central with peas in pods to the left) with a variety of other cosmetic herbs. It usually treats damp, hot, itchy (wind), sometimes drainging sores, which includes eczema, boils, scabies, fungal infections, some sexually transmitted infections, and more skin issues that are hot, damp, and itchy. The images of fire, give a feeling for the energy that kū shēn helps pacify. Topically it is typically prepared as an infusion or used in vinegar.  The Divine Farmer's Materia Medica (Wilms, 2017, p184) lists this herb as non-toxic. One source noted this was a toxic herb and to be used externally. Other bitter herbs (such as blue vervain) are also catergorized in this way, however due to how bitter kū shēn and blue vervain are (not the only two examples) it is unlikely anyone could stomach drinking enough to have problems with toxicity. That said, use with caution. It can cool the body/clear heat through urination. Internally it is also used for jaundice, dysentary (perhaps Alyssa's experience with the stomach ache, was showing this presentation), and cystitis (cooling through urination). The Divine Farmer's Materia Medica, also indicates this herb is good for stopping lingering dripping after urination and stops tearing. It also brightens the eyes. The eyes (in Chinese medicine) and jaundice and related to the liver and wind. Wind is related to neurological functioning. So that may explain the healing that I felt in my head/brain. I am also having some dripping issues which may be related. At any rate, this herb is a strong medicine that should be used with care for conditions that do have a strong heat component. It is contraindicated when there is a cold spleen or deficient stomach.  Invitation Have you worked with ku shen before? If so please share below. If you haven't used it yet, consider trying it for your next damp, hot, oozing skin condition (lol, hopefully that will never happen, but just in case!), and let us know what happens.

Herkimer is a lovely gem essence. I like to use it for "you are great the way you are". There is a completeness in this double pointed quartz. It also promotes dream clarity and generosity.   

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated on orange flower essence.  Meditation1 My daughter: There was some bread baking in an oven. Someone dropped some of the flower essence on the bread while it was baking. The bread started fluffing all over the place. It was expanding and foaming, all over the place, overflowing, way more than normal (like snakes on the fourth of July).  Me: I felt like there was steel triangle in front my heart (point downward). Two of the corners were "push" and "punish" and I don't know what the third one was. Maybe my heart. I had a realization that the person I am interested in, is thinking about things from his perspective. This allowed me to let go of the situation. My heart chakra started moving more freely again, and my third eye. Meditation 2 My daughter: I didn't experience very much but my temperature was pretty elevated during the meditation. It's not really anymore. I was mostly thinking about hair. When I opened my eyes I was thinking about the song "Bottled Violence" by Minor Threat.  Me: Again I was sort of asked to think about the steel triangle in front of my heart. When I let it go, I saw the different people in my life who I could let in. I felt my heart chakra move, more happily again. I think this is a good essence to use to feel the energetic impact of releasing this stuck energy.   Summary and Traditional Use Orange flower essence is associated with joy, renewal, and rebirth. It is for being steadfast, and uninfluenced by external forces. It is supportive to the third chakra and renewal of life force energy. It is a fresh burst of life that comes early, often budding in early Winter, and blossoming in mid Spring. I have particularly low energy these days. from past experiences with this essence I would have expected more buoyancy. But it did point out the reality in my life, which is that there are plenty of buds that might actually bloom and not to be stuck on something that wishes to remain stagnant. Because of the association with the third chakra, the color orange, early in the year energy...warmth seems like an outcome that this essence could bring. The bread experience reminded me of my favorite flower essence story. A friend of mine brings brownies to potlucks. Everyone oohs and aahs over them. When asked, she laughed, and explained they came from a box, but she adds flower essences to the mix, and everyone is happy. Try adding some orange blossom to your next bit of bakery.  Invitation Have you played around with orange blossom flower essence? It is one of the most joyful essences. Tell us your experiences in the comments or try it here:    

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated on Angelica sinensis, an herb of classical Chinese medicine, commonly known as Dong quai or female ginseng. Its pinyin name is dāngguī, in simplified Chinese it is  当归, and in traditional Chinese: 當歸.    Pre Meditation This herb has a sweet, pungent (spicy), aromatic, fragrant like incense. Smells like celery, hing (asafoetida), and watered down alcohol.  Mediations Meditator Guest: I feel like I am going to fall asleep. Some mushrooms were growing out of the ground. There was a vibrator that was brown and kind of mushroom-shaped. It was big, about 10-12".  It was drilling into the earth, like a jackhammer. There was muddy dirt flying out all around where it was drilling. All of the dirt was flying out and going into the Monty Don mug and becoming some sort of thick tea. I kept not being able to breath, I have a cold already, but it the feeling of congestion was heightened.  Me: I felt a crescent moon cradling my lower abdomen. It is a very intelligent because I am about to start my moon and this herb is keeping my energy in my pelvis. This is a pause of thinking. Towards the end I felt aroused, stimulated in my pubic area. There is a highlight of energy--two parallel lines in that area--maybe the kidney meridians. Of note about the plant, the herb says 'Sex may be something you want to do without thinking. It can be a deep trusting activity, where you don’t think, you just experience.' Here is an old drawing of a crescent on the belly of a dancer that this meditation reminded me of. Summary and Traditional Use I was very happy to work with this herb. I have been trying to clear up the mystery between western Angelica (archangelica blog post), Dú huó (pubescens blog post), and this one! Although it was a largely quiet meditation it has a lot to share, without words. This clarified a lot for me, although there is much more nuance to enjoy discovering. You can see the me and my Monty Don mug (I kept accidentally saying Monty Dong during this discussion, lol) in the photo above. OMG. The mushroom vibrator experience and my own experience felt kind of light and sexual at the time. However part of me thinks..."if this were my experience" (the mushroom one), and in light of the other Angelica family meditations (links to the other posts at the beginning of this paragraph) I would wonder if Dang Quai is a comment of the heavy handedness of mushrooms, their impact on the spleen and their managment by gardeners (like Monty Don), not herbalists/skilled practitioners. The Earth is the element of the spleen and I could see any halucinogen that brings up stuff from within our  consciousness being an abuse of the spleen. This is similar to how marijuana is an abuse of the heart chakra--causing immediate joy, but scattering the energy not cultivating or refining. I wonder this because, first off Angelica is an herb related to meditation. This meditation immediately made me aware of how very intelligent this herb is about managing the female body's energy and past ones have made me very conscious of Angelica for meditation. Meditation is a process of diligently honing consciousness. Shrooming is a short cut to having spiritual experiences. It is likely that there are consequences, although that is not my area of knowledge. I don't like the idea of any vibrator (or dildo, lol) acting like a jackhammer, and Angelica is too subtle for that kind of action herself. Furthermore it is making some sort of earth tea in the Monty Don(g) mug. For those of you who do not know, Monty Don is a famous English gardener. I got into him when I was watching Big Dreams, Small Spaces. It seemed like everyone in the show had a crush on, or at least really was *awe struck* by Monty Don (b 1955). This ranged from post menopausal (age-appropriate women) to young men. I was intrigued so i decided to give fan-girling on this guy a try. I was not disappointed, haha. I love a soothing voice, plant wisdom, and aesthetics. Sadly this was the level of merch available for at the time. Things have improved. Still Monty Don is a gardener and not a medicine man. This seems relevant in the way the herb discusses mushrooms, sex, and who is making the tea. The meta way that Angelicas discuss meditation is similar across mediations (again, see other blog posts). I could also see this particular Angelica being more put-off by the use of a false meditation breakthrough medicine being used for sex, or to tap into sexual energy, as the vision seems to suggest. I have heard of a couple long time meditators who used various "natural hallucinogens" and violently raped their long time partners, on more than one occasion. While non-addictive drugs are gaining acceptance, it should be understood that they are by no means predictable, safe, or something that opens only doorways you will feel good about afterwards. We have all heard of 'bad trips' and yet irresponsible drug use continues with little support or discussion of real life consequences. While typically associated with liberalism, a recent article I read about mushrooms indicated that repeating users are likely to trend fringe or extremist thinking and behavior which can just as easily go in the direction of QAnon and white supremacy as permaculture and off-grid living for ecology. Carreón, M., Deep State, Double Blind, Issue No, 10 I wonder if this herb is adding a layer of instruction about meditation and sexual connection in order to get to a deeper level of understanding both areas of life, which can be used to abuse, check out, or acheive profound evolutionary transformation.  In my meditation I appreciated the wisdom of the herb to keep my energy low. I typically do not meditate during my period. This meditation was the evening before mine started. I felt the herb appropriately kept my energy low. One reason to do this is to avoid more than necessary mental living at this time of my month. This improves my symptoms a lot. The kidneys are under strain during this time of the month.  This herb works with the following channels: Heart, Liver, Spleen, Kidney. This herb is used for tonifying the blood (eg anemia), premenstrual symptoms, menopausal symptoms, There is modern research supporting the use of this herb for renal (kidney) disease and microcirculation (small vasculature). Natural sexual energy is a sign of strong health and vitality. The Chinese medicine the kidneys are associated with sexual function. Excess use of sexuality is thought to deplete the kidneys (like using drugs or mushrooms to experience sex, or simply overindulging). In Western medicine, performance decline (most obviously in men) is most often related to vascular disease decreasing circulation. Indeed erectile disfunction is often the first sign of cardiac disease. This herb is most often thought of as a women's medicine, but it is used for both genders. It is used to improve sex drive.  This herb is also used to lubricate the intestines. In the West it is also used to treat respiratory infections. In general I find the Angelicas to be bringing back to the center, in a spiritual but grounded way. Dang quai means "to restore order" or "state of return". Like the western Angelica this herb is also used for nicotine withdrawal. I look forward to learning more about the use of the Angelicas.  Invitation:  The Angelicas are intriguing to me. Please share your experiences below. If you are interested in trying the herbs, you can find them here. 

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated on Agrimony, Agrimonia eupatoria, an herb of traditional Western herbalism.  Pre-Meditation Mildly astringent. A little sweet, mild green taste. Meditation 1 My daughter: I saw a bat was flying. He started out by our house and then flew over the church. An owl murdered him. She stuck her claws through his chest, all the way through the other side.  Me: I kept being brought to my left shoulder (former arthritis) and how easy it was to heal. The thinking was to remember how easy it was to heal that shoulder and think of my current problems like that. Then I thought of law suits. How I get into a lot of them. Often astrology will be expressed whether you want it to our not. For example, at one point I said to myself 'I am sick of the law, I never want to deal with a law suit again. I'll avoid them at all costs." Shortly after that I was dealing with three suits against me, three entire fraudulent law suits, all beyond my control to "avoid them". At that point I decided my thought was not the right one! It is better to recognize that the archetype will be at play and to engage with it in the way that works best for you. I just had a law suit conclude positively and am looking two more potential suits. I have been thinking about how I tend to let people walk all over me, and how I can change that. Maybe this strategy will feel more appropriate. Meditation 2 My daughter: My hands are shaking.  Me: My energy is in my lung heart area for a time. I feel pain in the center of my chest. I see bright yellow (neon? it is like the flowers) come up from my abdomen to my mouth. It says yellow is for speech too (something like that!). The talk is about something I did which created a big change. I did this by using my voice. Then the energy rolls down to my abdomen. I feel movement down the center of my intestines (stomach and kidney channel area) then rolling down my left spleen channel area (to the left). It goes back and forth in those areas a few times. Not fast, just doing some energy work and switching.  Summary/Traditional Use Our experiences (including Alyssa's) touch on many of the uses of Agrimony: pain, activating voice, ending suspension (bat relating to the hanged man in tarot), use in relation to legal matters, nervousness, chest pain, intestinal health, and work. The magical and intense nature of this herb came to me more than it ever has. I felt like it has a cutting and dark nature--maybe it was the feeling of the owl grabbing the heart of the bat. This is not a negative at all--agrimony releases people from pain and situations that seem like they have no happy ending in sight. I will go through our list: Pain: Agrimonia is excellent for pain wherein the sufferer holds in their emotions and often their breath, puts on a happy face, and is stoic. Often those around the sufferer do not know the person has a problem. This herb helps people speak about their problems and breath through the pain. This can unwind the pain, and the social dynamics that are not being as supportive as they could be.  Activating voice: This herb has some interesting ways of freeing voice. It is useful for job interviews. I used it many times for jobs I wasn't passionate about but needed. In the job interviews they would ask me about my (not-closely related) passions and love my enthusiasm. We would barely discuss the position andmy feelings about it. Hired every time! I had a tea shop with agrimony growing around one of the seating areas. I repeatedly saw people walk into the area and share things with strangers they wouldn't normally open up about, and make good (often work related) connections. I used this herb for years (more on that in intestines) and it helped me open up and tell people how I was feeling. I once had migraines (almost every day for years) hardly anyone knew. I was definitely an agrimony type person.  Legal matters/Work: it is recommended to use agrimony on legal papers. This herb has a long reputation for working magic in law and work--any area where you feel you are stuck between a rock and a hard place. It has a way of opening up paths that are beyond your reality tunnel. In terms of work, it is important to play too. I like the Zoo song Alyssa posted in the comments. It is another form of venting to just stop the work mind and let loose, entering the animal world. I also like the "Make our dreams come true" lyric. Agrimony is for unstucking us--often that happens by helping us out of our limiting views. Our limits may be unnecessarily keeping doors closed. Prowl around and find out what's on the other side.  Nerves/Intestines: This herb is helpful for emotional reactions that often involve the intestines. I used this herb for some years to resolve IBS (variable) that had a lot to do with big emotions impacting my digestion. One key is to vent. Agrimony has this tea kettle without a vent feeling. It's great for everyone else, but up to your eyeballs with pressure for the one holding it all in. It helps you vent, breath, speak...other ways to release besides letting your poop-maker take the brunt of things.  Lungs/chest pain: This herb is used for asthma and problems were the breath is stuck. This could be emotional and/or something you catch. One way to describe flower essences (agrimony is a traditional fes) is that if you treat the emotions you are experiencing while in dis-ease, then the dis-ease can resolve quite quickly. There is not as heavy of a burden to move. I have internalized this way of thinking and always look at the emotional and spiritual side of things. This can help in the moment, but it can also teach us long terms lessons and prevent illnesses from taking such a deep hold in the future.  There are other uses for agrimony. This aerial parts are typically used as a tea or tincture. The flower essence too! Got a problem you can't seem to get out of? Try agrimony. Tell us your experiences with this herb below. It is in our Humanity tea:

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated on Bái Sháo, white peony root, scientific name Paeoniae Radix, an herb of Chinese Classical Medicine. Pre-Meditation I found this tea to have a very light flavor. I later read that some recommend steeping it for 20 minutes. I felt uplifted, that it was good I was drinking it, and it brought my energy up. My daughter describes the flavor as like leaves on a vegetable, a vegetable where you are not supposed to eat them. It tastes a little “forbidden”. Meditation 1 Me: Peony looks at my body, up and down from the inside. She says I had an accident and I made a life, a way of living, where my locus of grounding is my sexual body, this is to offset all the stuff I have going on upstairs. It is a center of gravity for for now (meaning where I can find balance). She seems to appreciate this.* Her presence moves up to my head. I see curling energies in my frontal lobe, coming out the front about an inch or two. The energy looks like clear flower petals curving out and up, but it also reminds me of the energy coming out of bodies in Princess Mononoke (we just saw the movie). She says there is a lot going on (in my brain) that needs support. The emotions come in from further back in my brain, and they are big. They come in and they are strong. It looks like a red line coming in from the back, right, middle area of my brain to the left frontal lobe. I feel supported by her and seen, it is hard to tell what is going on, but she can see and because of that she seems up for the job. My daughter: I saw flowers blooming out of my va-jay-jay. They were blooming out around my inner thighs and lower belly area. They were not specific flowers, just flowers. It made me feel kind of warm in that area. The flavor stayed on my tongue for a while.  Meditation 2 Me: I feel other activity and movement on my frontal lobe: I see ladders leaning on my forehead--like scaffolding, it's something for workers to climb. There is energy moving back and forth, mostly very front/forehead. The patterns of movment are new. It feels smooth and supportive. My daughter: I see the deer god from Princess Mononoke. In the movie when his hoof hits the land, it grows a bunch of flowers then they die. He is the god of life and death in the forest. In my vision, he was going across the pond. Every time he took a step, instead of them growing and dying, they grew, and grew more and spread around him. The feeling was peaceful and uplifting.  Summary and Traditional Use: After meditating with this tea we (all with female bodies) felt uplifted and supported. I noticed both my daughter and I had far less tension. This was an interesting experience because I had a little knowledge of this herb ahead of time but not much. Through my study of Western herbalism I had known of the use of peony root for neurological issues (such as seizures). I did not know its primary application in Chinese medicine is female reproductive health. I was surprised when both my daughter and I had experiences related to our reproductive organs. This is one more reason why I am so in love with plant meditation as a way to learn directly from herbs.  *Since she refers to a lifestyle where the focus is the sexual center (chakra 2), I think this may be referring to my study of Chinese medicine and Daoism where the meditation focus is usually the second chakra (compare to my usual meditation of the last 28 years, which focuses on the 3rd eye). SImilarly, when I have my period and am getting stressed, if I keep my energy in my pelvis I feel grounded and comfortable. If I try to keep my energy mental, I am more likely to get irritable or frustrated. The energy dynamic that came out of this accident feels similar and grounding. Overall my recovery is great and I think most people would not notice I was different. Staying grounded is an ongoing strategy to smooth things out and feel more peaceful. The sexual center (as Peony refers to it) is not just about sex. It also has a lot to do with creative expression (making a baby is only one way to be creative, lol). I have been diving into my art. See it here.  This herb has long been used to promote smooth liver qi. Liver qi stagnation is very common in our culture. Associated feelings are frustration, anger, depression, and resentment. What I witnessed in my daughter and myself felt like liver qi harmonizing. We both have a tendency to get frustrated, and we both felt noticeably peaceful. (Ah, the beauty of peony!) The liver is important for regulating and balancing hormones. When the liver if having trouble, it causes hormonal imbalance. In Chinese medicine the liver is often considered the organ to treat when there is a neurological problem, such as a head injury. By this connection these two parts of the body are not so disparate.  They can be healed in similar ways. This herb tonifies the blood, treating irregular, excessive, and delayed menses. It helps retain yin (which means it is valued during menopause when yin deficiency can cause hot flashes). Here is a brain health smoothie recipe and article that talks a little about the of peony to improve intelligence and clarity of thought. I will post a little more about Western use of this herb when I am back with my books! Check the comments.  Invitation This was such a sweet experience. Have you worked with peony root? If so please share your experiences and/or observations in the comments below. If you haven't tried plant meditation yet, I hope you try it out. Here is a video I made on what different plant meditation experiences can be like. 

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with the gem essence of rhodochrosite. Meditation 1 Me: I saw pink moving in different areas of my body as my energy shifted. Root chakra and heart in particular.  My daughter: I kind of looked at a weirdly sunny valley a couple times, and that's it. Then I fell asleep. As I started to dream I saw random men in suits pole dancing.  Meditation 2 Me: I felt some intense energy (especially around my root chakra) and themes are round love and relationship arose. Overall I felt more peace in my heart and still in my heart area.  My daughter: I fell asleep. I don't like to fall asleep like that (not when I want to) but it was peaceful. Reflection: I would like to work with this essence more. It pointed out that I had taken some other essences not too long beforehand. I plan to work with this further and will add more comments about it. I have had remarkable experiences with this gemstone in the past, so much so that it is a favorite. I would like to better understand its mechanisms. I do look forward to sleeping tonight, hopefully the peaceful vibe will continue and I will sleep well. My daughter decided her plans for the evening were off the table and she headed to bed. yay! Traditional use: Supports the healing of deep and significant trauma that can prevent relationships. Opens the heart. Supports gentleness. Grounding, supports simplifying, supports directing your will (3rd chakra). It can help with sleep and nightmares. 

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated on Gégēn, Kudzu root, or Chinese arrowroot, scientific name Pueraria lobata, which is an herb of classical Chinese medicine. This herb is often used as a food. This herb is highly invasive in the United States, so enjoy it from healthy land (not sprayed or otherwise contaminated). Pre-mediation/taste Me: dry, a pungent smell, a little sweet and moist in the end in back of mouth, after the first taste finishes, My daughter: tastes like weird mushroom water, it has a taste that lingers in the back of my tongue, kind of sweet Overall: Pungent with sweet, nutritious, starchy substance to it. Meditation 1 Me: It felt like someone trying to get my attention. They want to help. They want to fix things. The things that are wrong feel far too big to fix. They are depressing. They are problems of oppression that are being acted out by the community and the law. The problems keep happening (to many people) because we all are collaborating/perpetuating the problem because many people refuse to see the problem and many who see it refuse to fight. It is so much easier to oppress victims. The helper wants to fix the problem, they have a simple solution. It is simple to them, but I am unwilling to compromise my heart to solve the problem. I don't even know if it is possible. But, I will not ever sell a piece of myself for freedom. I don't know how to do it, and I don't want to learn. Then the energy went to my frontal lob. Like a cuddle on my frontal lobe. It felt like white light holding the front of my brain above my eyes and up to my forehead. My daughter: I barely saw anything, but the second I closed my eyes my stomach hurt. It hurt through the entire meditation but it doesn't hurt anymore. General pain in my lower abdomen, more on the left side. It felt hot and a little vomit inducing. I had a lot of trouble focusing the entire time. Meditation 2 Me: I see myself drawing myself. This is in a way that I draw what my body feels, not how things look. Although, sometimes what I feel comes out as how something looks. I see lines coming down from my shoulders. Pencil lines. They come down from my shoulder girdle, down my torso. I will draw later. I feel the fixer again, wanting to change things. I want things to change too, but I don't think it is possible. We might look back on the things I have faced (and many others) as similar to atrocities like slavery in America, or the near extermination of our Indigenous population (if we can even recognize this as what it is), or the Holocaust. Then again, we may not see it. I don't know what to say to the fixer. At this point the only medicine may be a great embrace. A balm of two hearts holding each other by seeing and being seen, and the holding of bodies too. Then again, sometimes change comes like a flash of lightning. My daughter: I didn't really have an experience for like 9 minutes. Then I felt like I should be having one, and I did: There was an old Russian lady who pulled an entire turnip the size of her body out of the ground. She was actually a tiny cartoon Russian lady, so it wasn't the same as being the size of a regular body. The turnip was still huge, just not 5' 7". Maybe it was 4' 10"--it was a giant turnip and she was a small Russian. She pointed to something I couldn't see, she said, "Be gone, foul pest!" in heavily accented English. The foul pest was a baby elephant. I saw the baby elephant growing into an adult elephant (before my eyes). The growth process was really sped up. The elephant morphed into a teenage girl who was walking down the street with heavy head phones on. She was hunched over and looked really depressed. I felt like her heavy headphones represented the ears of an elephant. She was walking down the street and that was it. The turnip reminded me of a Stories Podcast story, The Ginormous Turnip, where they were trying to get a giant turnip out of the ground. They were all Russian. They were successful in the end. Summary/Traditional Use This plant is native to Asia and Australia, but now grows in North and South America, Africa, and Europe too. This is highly invasive in North America. It has a big root! According to the Iowa DNR "Kudzu roots are fleshy, with massive tap roots 7 inches or more in diameter, 6 feet or more in length, and weighing as much as 400 pounds. As many as thirty vines may grow from a single root crown." It is used extensively as a food (it is most common as a soup ingredient), and is considered more versatile than a turnip! It would certainly be impressive for anyone to pull this root out of the ground. Even a team of people! All parts of the plant are used medicinally. This plant works primarily with the earth element, related to the spleen and stomach. This is no surprise considering the masses this herb creates under the surface of the land. This herb is used for treating heat in the body and vomiting (Wilms, The Divine Farmer's Materia Medica). It is also being researched for use in ulcerative colitis, the findings are positive (example study). As previously mentioned this is a valuable plant for food, and certainly abundant. Many modern scientific studies validate the traditional use of Gégēn in treating diabetes and obesity. This herb supports the fluids.  This herb was traditionally used in Chinese medicine to relieve tension in the neck and shoulders (in the drawing experience it brought down the energy from my shoulders). This herb has long been used to expel pathogens (ex: flu) and promote eruptions (ie measles) to detoxify the body. This relates to the psychological issues the plant brought up in meditation. The experiences we had point to its ability to unearth large problems (the elephant in the room) impacting the emotional (and physical) of the person. Alcohol abuse is an example (as is overeating) of an emotional avoidance strategy. This herb is used to treat alcoholism, both to treat cravings and hangover (sources here). In Chinese medicine the spleen is related to the grandparents. I think of the spleen as having the wisdom of ages--often carrying defense strategies from previous lifetimes to protect out body. The spleen is also persistent, worrying over problems. Spleen 21, Dàbāo, or "the great embrace", is an excellent point for bringing huge insults to the surface to be honored and released, and thereby improving health dramatically. Sometimes this happens as fast as lightning, which cracks the dark sky and brings the energy down to the earth. I started as a dreamworker and found herbs to be a quicker way to bring people to an Aha! moment. When an herb radically changes an aspect of our health we thought was fixed (as is so often the belief in Western medicine) we start to question what else in life is mutable. More about the relationship between herbalism and lucid living in my interview for Awaken, the conference, recording available here. This herb feels like a great one to affect this type of change. As this is a highly invasive species, wildcrafting this herb (harvesting from safe spaces that have not been sprayed nor have problematic soil) to use for medicinal properties, food (find innumerable Japanese, Chinese, and Southern US recipes), or many crafts is a wonderful use of an overabundant resource. Please do not plant Gégēn in North America, it will overtake the land. Invitation Have you cooked with, gotten crafty, meditated with, or medicinally used Gégēn? Please share! I have used arrowroot for many recipes, but after reading up on this amazing invasive species I am excited to explore more. Basketweaving anyone?

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with parsley, Petroselinum crispum or sativum, an herb of traditional Western herbalism.  Taste and pre-Meditation impressions:  My daughter and I had different takes on this herb, lol. She says, it smells "Dank, like a weird bookstore that hasn’t been cleaned in like two years (the bookstore is by the coast, so it’s damp). Me: It has a smell that reminds me of kidney supporting herbs: nutrient rich, a little like the bottom of a lake (this is the kidney part, but not as much as blackberry leaf or nettles), a little salty, the feeling is warm and refreshing, nourishing, and satisfying. Meditation 1 My daughter: I started out in the same hippie bookstore by the coast as the other experience. But as I walked up to the attic, instead of LIzzo opening the door it was this kind of horror-movie-adjacent animated sketch (in black ink) of a thin woman with flowy hair. Behind her was this churning mass of inky black animated swirls. The woman pulled me in and I was falling through this abyss. When I landed I was looking down with a bird’s eye view of this teen laying in their room listening to “Where Is My Mind” by the Pixies, at full volume in headphones. Me: It is tough for me to get into this at first. I have been working closely with indigo for days and at first all I could see inside me was blue, blue, blue, blue, blue.  I do feel comfortable and more clear-headed because I am more secure/centered. Meditation 2  My daughter: My eyes would not shut the entire time!!! (ie no visions) Me: Still feeling saturated with blue. Nourished. Felt the gallbladder meridians on the side of my head (a little above my temples and extending back). I felt good, eventually moved to center of my forehead. I feel very nourished. Summary This herb is nutrient rich and has many uses. First off, for my daughter and anyone else who can't close their eyes during meditation: this is high in vitamin A, great for eye health, night blindness, protects eyes from UV damage, and prevents age-related vision issues. Parsley has a long history of supporting the adrenals, kidneys, and urinary tract. It contains Apiol, an essential oil that reduces the likelihood of urinary tract infections, helps pass kidney stones, and supports smooth flowing of bile duct passageways.    This plant is high in iron and helps prevent or recover from anemia. Parsley is good for bones, promoting growth, and it may offer a treatment for osteoporosis. The herb is also high in copper and various other minerals, overall it has positive impacts on skin and hair. This herb is an excellent food herb that is supportive during all phases of life for women, including pregnancy and nursing. Always work with an experienced herbalist or healthcare provider when making decisions for. yourself and especially during pregnancy and nursing. This herb is stimulating to the uterus and can promote menstruation if it is delayed or absent. Women often face a higher demand for nutrients, because of menstruation, pregnancy, and nursing. This herb is an nutrition-packed ally. Consider parsley a useful addition to anyone's healthcare diet. "Not your garnish!" Invitation Have you experimented with parsley or used it in your practice? Please share below :) Interested in joining the Plant Meditation Club? Subscribe here and get four mystery earth medicines sent to you each month.     

Not sure if you are having an experience with plants? This video highlights different types of experiences you may have with a plant. Taste, physical changes, energy shifts, and emotions...all are relevant and important. We can learn from your interactions with plants. Curious about Plant Meditation Club? Sign up here.  

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with Bǎi Hé, 百合, Lily bulb, the bulb of Lilium brownii, an long used herb of Chinese Classical Medicine. Pre Meditation, Flavor, etc Mild, slightly bitter, mildly, weirdly sweet. Dry. "Reminds me of mildew." Meditation 1: Me: I feel pressure moving up from my mouth. I saw the white pieces, together as a point (like a bulb) in my head/face. It feels sinus related, firm pressure, not uncomfortable. This progresses slowly. Then the energy moves to my reproductive organs. I see the white, bulb-like shape there too. Then energy is there for quite a while. I ask it how it works. It asked me why I was no longer interested in just observing the plant heal me, and instead wanted to have an explanation. I said I wanted to be able to teach about the herbs. It said, "and you want people to have their own experiences." Then it explained "Imagine if you had a rain chain." The rain chain looking thing went down through the chakras to my second chakra and was made of white light. The chains were large. The plant explained it moved the cold water down. It works by the kidneys. The water needs to move down and not stagnate. When it stagnates there are problems.  My daughter: It was black. Then there was a white splash that landed on the ground. I could tell it was this weird, moldy stuff. Flies kept landing on it. The flies would walk around from where the splash was to other places, but there was always this trail of mold following after them.  Meditation 2: Lily: I felt pressure in my left cheek for a long time. I again think sinus pressure. Then I felt pain and constriction in my lungs. It reminded me of when I used to have lung issues, like asthma and bronchitis (every Winter, all Winter). Overall my experience of all the energy presenations was slow. I thought maybe it was good for slowness in the body. At that point the energy shifted and I had a very peaceful, relaxed, and fulfilling meditation.  My daughter: There was this dad, classic 52 yo with New Balances and kids. He has some mold growing on the floor of his house. He was going to show his kids and his wife that he had a miracle solution. He had one of those spray bottle from the store, that he filled with this tea in the bottle, and sprayed it at the mold because he thought it would make it go away. The mold started spreading after he sprayed it! It spread all over the house and then the house turned into a giant mushroom. He said, "Oh, sh#@!," in slow-mo, and he looked at his house and smiled at the camera. My daughter says, I think this tea is mold, or there is something wrong with tea, like it is moldy.  Summary/Traditional Use:  The bulb of Lilium brownii has many traditional uses in Chinese medicine. It is used for clearing heat conditions, supporting yin deficiency, and reducing inflammation. It is a diurhetic, helping the water descend. It is used for a variety of respiratory conditions in humans and dogs (and perhaps other animals). Commonly used for cough (including whooping cough), asthma, bronchitis, upper respiratory tract infections (like sinus infections), and irritation from chronic drug therapy. This is related to Easter lily, Lilium longiflorum, and looks very similar with different colored pollen. You can watch my video about it here. I used it for my dad's COPD, and it is commonly used for PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). It is considered cooling and the white color I saw with my visions did feel lightly cooling. I was feeling hot and irritable today, so the cool and slow vibes were supportive. Bǎi Hé, 百合, has some neuro-protective properties, including for helping with Alzheimer's. This may offer some insight for Alyssa's vision of Donald Trump having the mic muted. The plant may be able to see what is going on since it can help treat the problem. I wonder if Trump's speach and thinking are so disorganized (more so than last time he ran) that the conservative cameras will not focus on him. The intent may be to protect him, but ultimately, it would share that he does not have a good image to present. Indeed this plant is cooling and for treating yin deficiency. It is contraindicated when there is yin deficiency with dampness (like diarrhea). So adding this herb to a damp situation (like a moldy floor) would not help. It may turn the whole body into a mushroom. Dang!  Invitation: Have you used Lily bulb, Bai he, or Easter lily? Please share your experiences below and specify which lily, how you used it, and your observations.  

Trans is Beautiful is a gem and flower essence made to support anyone who has experienced trauma or been misidentified. I discuss the essence in general and in particular talk about calla lily and false solomon's seal, aka "special", as well as the properties of the gemstones in this blend. I also introduce my art remedy paintings! See more here.   

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with pink alstroemeria flower essence.  Information from the essence: My daughter: "I kept seeing a plant that was dying over and over again and regrowing on top of itself. The Home Shopping Network guy says, 'If you are sick of deaths in the family, you should try this." Me; This essence had a soft feeling to it and I felt a lot of pink energy (the color of the flower) in my whole chest/radiating with the heart. I was processing a lot of heart stuff around a relationship. I feel held back and want to speak out about my feelings. I understand the situation better after this essence. A clear message was that it takes time to heal injuries to our heart (image of a pin being stuck into my heart, like a voodoo doll) and it takes time for words to come up from someone's heart, or at least the person whose heart I would like to hear speak! I feel so much softer, and also clearer about both emotional intentions that might seem bad from a cultural perspective (but seem a-okay from a broader multi-lifetime perspective and that of consciousness) and those that feel like "let's go" without waiting a little more for the other person to breathe in their intentions (with grounded voice).  Summary from ours and other experiential sources: There is not a lot of information on alstroemeria yet. I appreciate this flower because it came to me in a dream during the worst moments of my life. It came to me when I was being scapegoated and abused on a huge level. So much so that I was seriously considering believing I was the problem--lots of gaslighting. Because I was tempted to internalize the extreme blaming the victim narrative, I thought this essence was for something totally different that what it is for. Indeed it is for getting through the toughest of times. It is to know that through focused effort anything is possible. Though it has very strong heart medicine it is connected to the heart (through healing pain and dealing with grief, no doubt including deaths) and earth (understanding that relationships, and all of life, is often about enduring with love, loving through the hardtimes, and the beauty of getting through these hard times together. It is process, not outcomes.  Years later, I looked into this essence again and realized how much it had given me. Such strength.  Such a simple flower, but such strong medicine. It certainly deserves more research. Do you have any insights to share?  

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with Mài mén dōng, 麦门冬, Japanese hyacinth, scientific name Ophiopogon japonicus.    Mài mén dōng, areas for further investigation include: use for restoring yin, emotional validation and resurrection, therapeutic elegance, the male end of the spectrum emotional experience with this herb, use of this plant as a flower essence.  Pre Meditation:  Sweet aftertaste. My mouth feels more moist, but I feel a sense of dryness inside. I feel my left more than my right. This reminds me of another herb. A comforting taste and feeling, perhaps like a nurturing, motherly embrace. Meditation 1: Me: I feel elegant circulating energy in and in front of my nose up to the crown of my head (bai hui? bi way or the high way). It feels soothing in its elegance. I can let go of some drama that had been on my mind. I see faint purple lines running up to baihui, the center point at the top of my head. It looks like a flower bud/closed petals. My tooth roots came to mind, they do look similar to the tuber. My Daughter: It was a QVC infomercial, this herb was being sold in a flask, as an essence of the herb. The sales pitch: "Well, let's take this broken down plane for example." They applied some of the herb's essence to a leaf, and then they smeared it across where there was smoke coming out of a plane. Then the plane was fine. The people on the infomercial said that it was more rare than Chanel, so "You should buy it immediately. It is really expensive and really rare, you should buy it immediately because it does the trick." Meditation 2:  Me: I feel pleasant energy move from my mouth, to nose, forehead, and baihui. I find the energy moves to my shoulders. The movements are all elegant and symmetrical. At my shoulders the energy moves in an infinity loop from edge to edge. I sit up straighter and the energy moves smoothly to my heart level. Now the energy is pale pink and diffuse, gently illuminaing my torso. Then energy had been pale purple and felt more physical (like petals). The pink is energetic and is soft and peaceful. My daughter: I didn't experience much, but my butthole kept getting unnaturally warm. I saw the butthole had a fire in it and it was spreading through the tuby things inside my body, it wrapped around my heart, and then went out through my mouth. The heat wasn't uncomfortable it was just warm. Now I feel peaceful and relaxed.  Summary and Traditional Use: The above images shows the herb in flower. It has tiny flowers and it is not known for them. It matches my head experience and color. This herb gave varied experiences. It is considered cooling, sweet, and neutral. This herb is known for use for a variety of dry conditions associated with the stomach, heart, and lung channels. Some examples: periodontal disease (supportive when dry mouth is a factor), some evidence of support for oral cancer; a dry cough, with thick mucous that is difficult to expel, or coughing up blood, and constipation due to internal dryness with emotional irritability (Bensky, Materia Medica, 1986, p 520). This herb is known to pacify the heart, decreasing feelings of restlessness. This short summary reflects some of our experiences including images and feelings of warmth and dryness (airplane and heat in the digestive tract), and images of teeth. Generally speaking this herb moistens and supports yin. Yin is associated with the water element and emotions. Both Alyssa's experience of witnessing emotions that she doesn't normally like to dwell on and my pink heart energy experience related to emotions (in Western concept). Honoring emotions (even if the cultural demand is to be mature and productively power through) is supportive to yin. The herb is said to bring happiness with long term use, and even turn white hairs dark again. Is this the power of being able to sit with emotions til they clear? I was so intrigued by the elegant quality of the energy flows of this herb. It has grace about it, like a dancer. It reminds me of the body as an art form. I feel there is so much more to understand about this herb. I look forward to working with it more. Stay tuned for whether my white hairs change. I have had this happen before and I find joy in seeing dark roots on white hair. In the past I couldn't decide if it was divine intervention or juicing. This time I will have a better idea. 

Shepherd's purse is a wonderful herb used for the reproductive health women and nonbinary folx. Historically it has been particularly helpful for uterine fibroids, uterine prolapse due to muscle weakness, and trauma. Menstrual blood that is dark and has clots can be an indicator this herb will be supportive. Learn more by reading our plant meditation club experiences here.  

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditate with Angelica archangelica, commonly known as angelica. This herb is related to a previous, Chinese herb we meditated with: Dú Huó, 獨活, Angelica pubescens radix. For my in person group we did two 10 minute meditations with Angelica archangelica and one 10 minute meditation with Angelica pubescens for comparison. Why? These herbs are used in practice differently. How do they overlap? This was fun :)   Areas for further experimentation and research: Angelica archangelica for rashes.  Angelica archangelica and pubescens for promoting health romantic relationships.  This is our herb:  Angelica archangelica Pre Meditation/Taste, etc A mildly nutty flavor, spicy, rooty, mushroomy but sweet. All votes say it was significantly sweeter for the second meditation, this was the same cup, that had been sitting around and had cooled. Meditation 1  Me: during the majority of this meditation consisted on my energy going to my right side. I have been over on my left (maybe due to a car accident), this involved my body leaning quite far to the right and the energy shifting too. Linda: I was feeling agitated during meditation. I felt it in a wave from the middle of my head (occiput), through my whole body, to my feet. This wave happened a few times and it felt like agitated, like anger. My daughter: There was a guy, he was in a rose garden, but it was all roses, (no stems, thorns, or leaves,) and the sky. The roses were super, vividly pink and beautiful. He seemed like he was on a run (based on his outfit). He was a little muscular. Roses started to bloom out of his body--no stems, but roses blooming out of his skin. Then they disappeared into red, bruisy rashes. He started chugging water that was infused with this herb out of a water bottle. Then music started playing. It was "Cradles" by Sub Urban. The part where it says  "Fire's spreading all around my room My world's so bright It's hard to breathe, but that's alright Hush!" Followed by music.  Then the bruises start disappearing. He started breakdancing...like a person in a commercial, acting happy). Roses remain around him. Cut to a new scene: Still in the rose garden, a victorian couple is waltzing. They are a generically straight couple, the man is a little taller. They start having bruises appear on them, and then they disappear, because of this herb. They are waltzing the whole time.  A man turns off the tv, and the screen closes on this scene (black coming from the top and the bottom). A family is with him, there are three children and it seems like his wife is there too, but not visible. The man says, "See kids , that's what you do when you get a bruise."  The kids rush off, they ran down the halls, then they became the people in the rose garden. It was a sort of fever dream.  My father enjoyed a very peaceful, quiet, clear meditation.  Meditation 2  Linda: My mind was busy, it was a chaotic meditation. It was hard to concentrate.  My daughter: There was a ring of fire under someone's skin. We were in a basement room. The ceiling was caucasian flesh colored. It was like being inside someone's body, under their skin. The ring of fire goes about half way to the ceiling. It looks like a witch's sacrificing fire. On the Cradles song, mentioned above, there is a man pushing a baby buggy that is filled with fire. In my vision he pours the cradline into the fire, making it bigger. Then, channeling angelica: a wave of water washes over it, only eliminating a little bit of the fire. I think about being a pisces. Angelica is so pisces, which is cooling. Then the flames were poking the skin upwards, but not setting it on fire like normal flames. A bunch of fire formed into a pool on the inside of the ring of fire, the fire was keeping it contained. A symbol appeared, a pisces symbol. Then everything disappeared.  Me: I feel subtle energy shifts with my health. I asked the plant some different questions but it is working on what is in my heart, which is some family issues and personal relationship stuff. I asked it how it liked to work best. Somehow I ended up hearing/seeing how I would be best to work in the world. The way it showed it how I work with myself and only a few people (because it is not normative, I guess). I see past lives and how unresolved reactions and impacts from these lives are causing current health troubles. I also talk to organs and the inside of the body to understand what problems are contributing to imbalances. This is a way to address the root of the problems which is very effective if the person on the receiving is adapts. In this way I have overcome numerous chronic health conditions and have been able to release fears and anxieties that seemed out of proportion in this life. Talking to organs of myself and clients has also been quickly effective. This is a conversation which ends in instructions either for the organ systems involved or the person.  My father is enjoying very still, silent meditations. He didn't want to stop meditation even when it was time, so he did note that it was less quiet when we were talking, lol. Angelica pubescens Pre Meditation/taste, etc The taste is sour and bitter, "a three year old would spit it out", puckery, perfumey/incense smell. *Notably this was a stronger steep than the last herb, that was indicated to be a factor by the herb(s). The herb(s) indicated that the stronger doses make it easier to red and share experiences with people.  Meditation 3  Me: This plant showed me an aspect of an art quilt I am working on. It was the decorative floral top-stitching between hateful statements. The quilt is about rape culture. I felt the plant was saying that it aligns with the flowers between the terrible things that come up in life. I also took it to be saying that it was not just the healing (like myself) that I was to do it the world, but also my art. I am optimistic about being in the world. I feel my crown open and see a snake inside nosing the top of my forehead. The herb asked me to check into my father and where his energy is. It feels like it is high, high up. Just at the crown for the most part. He is at the end of his life and the energy often ascends like this, moving out of the body and up through the head.  Linda's energy comes forward to me clearly. She mentions the Mayo clinic, she says she was my grandmother's mother. My grandmother's mother went to the Mayo clinic when my grandmother was 12. She went because of cancer I believe, and my grandmother became the large family's caretaker. Her mother did not return. She indicated/reminded me that both sides of my family went back to the same place in Europe in the Alsace-Lorraine region and to the same family name. The people in the family have gone back and forth to both sides of the family to work through the issues of the family coming a part and moving back together over hundreds of years. She is staying here because she is proving she can stay when there is a health problem. On reflection she is showing that a family member can be cared for in the home. I see how beautiful it is that marriage can bring you the feeling of someone loving and caring for you until death do you part. I know that mariage can also bring great pain, so it is healing to see their relationship. It takes two people loving each other generously and diligently to acheive this--they both give to each other deeply. This cannot be created by one out of the two people.  My daughter: A guy in the back room of a bar. He is white and moderately attractive, but that is not what it's about. He has a cigarette in his hand with this herb in it. There is a lot of smoke around him (it feels exagerated). Velouria from the Pixies comes over the top of the bar music and we no longer hear the bar music. Velouria is his inner song. He goes out into the bar, with the cigarette in hand. He meets up with a femme fatale vibe woman in a slinky, risqué, but high end dress, with pale skin, and black hair. Her inner song is Subbacultcha by the Pixies. They make out and their songs meld. He gives her some of his cigarette. After that her song changed to his, their songs are melded. They slow dance in the club, while everyone else dances like it is a club. This is an advertisement for Brown Bear Herbs' new cigarette, simply called "Love"...the ink color is pink like the roses in the earlier visions. The colors are black and white and muted, with a pop of rose pink.  Linda: I felt like I was wrapped up in a very soft, warm blanket, it was very soothing. It quieted my mind, and I was actually able to meditate. My dad enjoyed another quiet meditation. Summary and Traditional Use:  Angelica archangelica is my favorite bruise remedy. When properly prepared tincture is applied to a fresh bruise (less than 15 minuted old) you can watch the bloom recede. After seeing (through my daughter's eyes) the bruises (blunt trauma, direct insults) and rashes (heat welling up from within?) presenting on the lovers and being healed with this herb, I think it may be good for emotional wounds too that can surface and be dealt with in an emotionally supportive relationship. I think of Angelica as being helpful for people who look outside, at drugs and people, for help witha. sense of emptiness within. This herb helps end addictive tendencies and find spiritual source within, helping draw energy up in meditation. It is considered an important meditation herb. It is used specifically in tobacco cessation. The seeds are typically chewed as a tobacco alternative. I had not thought of using it in a smoke because I typically don't like hard herbs in smoking blends. I am working on a seasonal smoke, which I was going to call Cosmic Love. However I really like the idea, emotions, and imagery around using this herb for a Love cigarette. I will experiment with it. I love the idea of a Love cigarette that takes people out of dependency on Love.  It feels like it can be like an addiction to love and relationships for some people, and a feeling incompleteness without one. It sounds like this smoke would offer the medicine to have two healthy people come together and meld songs.  Angelica archangelica is also used as a carminative, to stimulate digestion, helping with regurgitation related to cold and food stagnation. It does have a history of use for skin irritation, rashes, preventing skin issues, and evening out skin tone. While Angelica is typically used for cold and depressive tissue states, in heat/flames were pushing up the skin from within. It is possible to have cold in the gut and heat in other places. There is more to understand for this less-common use of Angelica.  Angelica pubescens, (third meditation for those with me this week, but this is also a past PMC subject) the Chinese herb, Dú Huó or 獨活, means 'self-reliant existence'. I feel this overlaps with Angelica archangelica, both helping me see how I can live true to my identity, most authentically. These herbs seemed to have a lot of overlap. Read more about it at the post for reveal date 5/30. I look forward to studying this herb and Angelica sinensis, dong quai to learn their commonalities and where their applications differ. Invitation: Have you worked with Angelica archangelica or Angelica pubescens before? Please share your experiences and associations.  

Plant Meditation Club: This week we tasted and meditated with Job's tears, or coixseed, yì yǐ rén 薏苡仁, scientific name: Coix lacryma-jobi. Alyssa, my daughter, and I were in attendance. We had a zoom Plant Meditation Club gathering :)   Areas for further investigation: Jobs tears, yì yǐ rén, as a means to increase wood energy. Yì yǐ rén to facilitate sacred, spiritual sex. Use of this herb as a food for hypothyroidism. Pre Meditation: Taste, etc The seed looks small popped popcorn (see photograph). The tea of the crushed seeds had the color of light straw and is mild in taste. The tea was fairly mild and neutral. Later on in the steeping the flavor became more sweet--light sweetness of a grain, like corn or wheat. Initially I felt the tea’s energy more in the back of my mouth and nose. Alyssa felt energy in her forehead and eyes in the beginning. Meditation 1: Alyssa: forehead pressure, around eyes, sinuses cleared, alert and content, no specific thoughts or visions My daughter: The Soul Glo commercial song from Coming to America is playing. It is a disco scene with colors flashing everywhere. There is a Black person with a large afro. The voice over is “Soul glow, get your inner colors on.” Cut to a comedy news show: Old white guy says “More like, ‘get your colored on.’” and other racist stuff. Next scene: A Black woman with a rainbow behind her (is this lesbian?) twerking to the song “Get Your Freak On”. My daughter seems bright and excited, laughing a lot. She was fired up, talking about racism before the meditation and this herb seems to have increased her passion. Me: My mouth is happy, feels fleshy (I think this is a spleen herb, which is associted with the mouth), aware of teeth, forehead, mild third eye headache. I feel grounded but I noticed I am scattered mentally. I have become more conscious of that lately, not just this meditation. I feel my nose. I tried to talk to it, but it is not a chatty herb. It motioned energetically that it does what it does in the reproductive area and also the mouth and other herbs have done this too for me but it doesn’t feel the need to say anything about it. Generally uplifted, grounded but light. I feel a lot of sexual energy in my yoni area.  Meditation 2:  Alyssa: Uplifted, mood uplifted, a little cooling (on a hot day), still energy around the nose. Calm and stable. My daughter: A Black, curvy, woman is on the TV, shaking her hips to “Hips Don’t Lie” by Shakira. Colorful fireworks are going off hehind her. The same douchebag white guy is sitting in his LazyBoy. When he points his remote at the TV the fireworks behind her changed to fireworks that spelled out the word “Colored” in brown. The white guy turned out to be the president. Then, there is a movie banner for the movie “The Color Purple”. The main actor is giving a speech. She says the Black community would not be what it is without Tupac and Ian McKaye.  Me: I feel my reproductive organs highlighted. I feel lots of sexual energy. Energy moves from chakra 1 to 2, then 1 to 4, then 1 to my face. I am feeling my heart chakra rotate in a big way. I feel a lot of sexual energy. The herb is quiet and I am scattered but I feel like I should be able to get a little more direct information from the herb. I try out different strategies and land on, “How should your medicine be used?” Response summary: Energy moves down to my genitals. “A lot of people want to have sex with the genitals.” This appears to be a relatively shallow type of physical pleasure. The herb can be used to have sex with the liver (the framework is Chinese medical conception of the liver). The herb elevates the energy from the genitals to the liver. The plant indicates the liver's ability to push up through earth (wood element). Once the liver is involved, the liver can bring energy up as desired to make it a spiritual act. It seemed like the energy created from sensual/sexual interaction can move up through the hiatus of the diaphragm and ascended from there. I asked for other examples, because it seemed to be indicating the liver having a lot of possibilities. It seemed mostly focused on that, but did mention, with the air of irrelevance (because it is not applicable to me)--making babies. The wood energy and other qualities of the liver remind me of the kundalini energy. Rather than affirming that idea. It seems more like the plant shared that the liver has the ability to give energy to spiritual activity (and a lot of other things, rather than being the source). At any rate the plant was indicating it has the ability to elevate sex to the liver level and at that point hand off the goal of spiritualizing sex to the liver, which will help. The plant may also support the liver.  Summary and Traditional Use: This herb is mildly cooling. It is used to relieve dampness which typically impacts the lower limbs and pelvis first. So it can improve damp digestion (diarrhea) and damp reproductive health issues. This herb is traditionally thought of as supporting the stomach, spleen (both associated with the mouth), and lungs (nose). In our plant meditation, two of us experienced highlighted eyes, which are associated iwth the liver in Chinese medicine. I don't know of this herb being used for liver support. In the meditation it was giving me insight into the movement of the wood element through the earth and the connection between the two organs. I think that alleviating damp can improve brightness and, in this case, perhaps free up liver energy. All three of us for brighter and more excited after taking this herb, though in a stable way. This herb did not seem chatty by nature, but seemed to support insight and growth. The cultural references that came out around racism and Black community culture, were complex and while mostly in my daughter's awareness, were presented in new light. The musicians and songs referenced connected Black culture to several other cultures and to history. There is a lot to dive into with all those videos and cultural references! Enjoy.  This grain herb is used as a food. This gluten free grain may be helpful as a gluten free grain option for hypothyroidism. With Hashimoto's thyroiditis gluten often is a contributing factor to the body's reaction to the thyroid. Job's tears seems to increase enthusiasm when it is present, so it may help with apathy, which is a common low thyroid symptom regardless of etiology.  This seed is also used in traditional jewelry making. It may share some of its medicine when used for craft too.    Invitation: Do you have knowledge or experience of this herb as medicine, food, or for crafting? Please share in the comments below. :) If you are interested in getting to know plants in general and new things about plants through meditation and shared experience, sign up here. 

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with jade, a gem essence. Meditation 1: My daughter: This meditation was hard. I did see a summer scene with people on a blanket, in the grass. They are drinking lime mojitos with lavender and cherry. I hear the following poem: "Mojitos under the sun. When it rains it pours, Soon the divorce will have begun." Me (Lily): A hand offers me a light green stone (the color of aventurine, which is also a jade color). They say, "When I give you this...". I see women, this takes them deep into their hearts. So deep they cannot feel it so much when things happen with more peripheral layers of their body. I think of women in China, the wives were sex slaves too. This is a solution. A friend of mine was a concubine for lifetimes. She learned to dissociate then. There are ways to deal with this that are not positive: to dissociate or make up a love story, like Stockholm syndrome. Three ways to manage these situations more positively: this, women's kirtan kriya, and 8 (8th chakra, ascension/awareness). This gem takes you in, in, in, so far inside your heart--in a tiny space there. This also seems related to not being able to speak. It is a silent, safer space.    "There are two ways to get inside." This means inside a woman's body. I think they are vagina and heart, but the stone is very quiet about most things.  Meditation 2:  My daughter: I see 80's girls. Then I hear another rhyme: "Lime mojitos under the summer sun, 'Run, run, run' he said, and so I ran, and it was never the same again."    Me: I asked what it was best for. It said in many ways it is easier to be depressed than to be 8. When you are depressed there is a really easy way out (suicide). When you are 8 you have to think about things from a broad perspective.    Traditional Use: Heart--dealing with shock, good for calm in the midst of a storm--perhaps being in the eye of the storm in a small space inside your heart. Pathological normalcy--this makes sense with traditional, and perhaps contemporary Chinese culture, where there was a need to follow the leader under extreme, controlling leadership. Love--new love, inspiring fidelity, especially love in later years.  Protection from sexual or financial manipulation. This seems related to the feelings and dangers around wives and concubines in China, and the idea of it being "a solution". Kidney: support (heart plus kidney: shaoyin support).  Dreams: calms the mind and brings insightful dreams (this is associated with heart in Chinese medicine) Relationships: improves dysfunctional relationships, supportive for people who have been bullied and belittled.  Invitation: Have you worked or meditated with jade? Please share your experiences in the comments below.

Plant Meditation Club: This week we meditated with mùxiāng, 木香, costus root, whose scientific name is Aucklandia lappa.    Mù xiāng for promoting emotional connection and devotion to the human race warrants more investigtion. Mouth/Taste:  Smells like fake cheese, or faintly of goat milk. The flavor is tangy, mushroomy, a little sweet (especially on the second steep). The feeling is dry. Energy comes to my nose (which is associated with the lungs in Chinese medicine).  Meditation 1: My daughter: At the start of the meditation we were at a pizza shop and there was pepperoncini on the pizza. You said (meaning me, Lily), "Oh god, I really want it, but I can't have it." Then a cup of this tea appeared.  I asked the plant "Tell me what the big thing is that you are good for."  I saw a scorched Earth with a giant bomb that was exploding.  I heard (like a song) "Think of the human race."  Then I see a giant pepperoncini in the sky.    Me (Lily): I feel my nose, then my base (first chakra area). Two thin (about 1" wide) yellow energy lines go up my abdomen and torso (this is along the stomach meridians). Gradually the yellow lines get wider. Then there is more yellow on the left and it spreads out to fill my left lower quadrant. It talked to me about my digestion slowing down, suggesting maybe I need to get a thyroid test. I felt increased peace and grounding.  I decided I did not want to go to my school because it is so oppressive of my voice, which is bad for my thyroid (my hashimoto's is in remission and if I continue to comply with the wishes of the school I do feel it will become an active problem again, I would not be surprised if it is already moving in that direction). This does not mean I will stop attending, but the herb is making me honest with myself, and I will need to find a solution that works for my health if and when I continue my doctoral program in acupuncture and Chinese medicine.  My daughter gets giggly. Meditation 2:  Me: I am ruminating about my conflicted feelings about the people at the school who are giving me trouble and the school in general, my heart hurts a little. My daughter: I see nothing for seven minutes. Then I see a pepperoncini with a mouth and two eyes. It says: "I will be very important to your life, but mostly your mom's life. Very important!" Summary and Traditional Use: This herb showed up for improving digestion, most likely for digestion of fats, like cheese*, thyroid health, and having more humanity/the cost of bombs.  *Pepperoncini peppers have a capsaicin level of 193 parts per million (ppm). Capsaicin is known to help digest fats. Pickles contain vinegar, which debatably helps digest fats and/or calm inflammation when the gut is irritated by certain foods. For easier fat digestion (with cheesy pizza) this herb offers a formula: a cup of mù xiāng root tea, and pepperoncinis as one of your pizza toppings. Gut bombs and bombs. Use of this herb for promoting more emotional connection and devotion to the human race warrants more investigtion. This traditional Chinese herb is known for activating the gallbladder, large intestine, spleen, stomach, and triple burner. The gallbladder helps break down fats into food which eases digestion (spleen, stomach and large intestine in this case). This herb is used for eliminating food stagnation and diarrhea. (Bensky, Materia Medica, ed 3). This herb can help strengthening the will, and over time reducing waking from nightmares (Divine Farmer's Classic of Materia Medica, trans: Wilms). To me this indicates it moderates heat, which can be involved in nightmares and diarrhea (excess heat), and prolonged excess heat (eg autoimmune attack and inflammation of the thyroid) can lead to hypothyroidism and slowed digestion. Thyroid: this herb is used in ayurvedic medicine for thyroid support. In the Ayurvedic strategy for supporting hypothyroidism it is important to reduce ama by moving food along at the appropriate pace, clearing the body of toxins and/or undigested metabolic waste. This herb has been historically relied upon to  Invitation:  Do you have experience with costus root, mùxiāng, 木香 or Aucklandia lappa? Please share in the comments below, we would love to hear.     

Here is the report on Dú Huó, or Angelica pubescens, from Plant Meditation Club. This plant meditation had a very sex positive/empowered woman vibe. The herb can be used for self-suffiency, lower back issues, and meditation. The herb shared a vision about how plant meditation works. Read our Plant Meditation Club post about Dú Huó.